What I'm Most Thankful For Today

I was reading over some Thanksgiving quotes and there was a lot of stuff about gratititue - which got me to thinking about thanks and things I'm thankful for. I have a lot to be thankful for: my company, my health, my family, friends, my apartment, and so much more. However, I realized there are some people that I've been talking about all year, and this past weekend has really been a reminder of how important they all are to me.

Ladies. A proper title, always with a capital "L" and preceded by another word to distinguish the different groups (which I'm not getting into). But suffice to say that my Ladies are my closest female family and friends, without whom I would be a different person.

Mom, thank you so much for just being my mom. The relationship we have is like no other, and is envied by many. You're always there for me, and you've always got my back, even when you don't understand the path I've chosen. What I cannot help you understand by telling you, I will make you see by showing you. I promise. And I'll miss you next year.

Kay. You've always treated me as if I were your own. I've never known anything but love from you and I really appreciate that. You're definitely the hostess with mostest, there's never a dull moment. I wish you the best of luck in your studies and in life. You're a great mom, a great wife, and a great person. So I'm reaching across the aisle to tell you I love you ;)

Ke, Kisha, my sisters - you are both growing up to be strong and smart young Ladies. Both of you have a fire and creativity, and a drive to be excellent at such a young age. It's inspiring to see both of you grow in the way you've grown. You're both great to be around and I love your energy. It is my deepest regret that I don't get to spend as much time with either of you as I would like to, but I hope you both can forgive your big brother, and I  strive to be in  a place one day soon where I will be able to spend time with you both whenever I want.

Too many aunties to name :) But know that you're all the best aunties a nephew could ever ask for. More like my big sisters than anything, really. You're all awesome and it's so cool how each of you has a little hand in shaping who I am today. 

Crissy, Rina, K'Sha, my High Ladies. My best and most trusted female friends. You Ladies are something special in my life. You all know me better than anyone, and you've helped me through so, so much. I can talk to any of you about anything. You are all strong, beautiful, women and I respect that most about every one of you. You guys have advised me and been there for me when I was completely lost and without all of you, I don't know where I'd be today. You all define what a Lady is to me.

And last, but certainly not least, my First Lady. Bunny, you are my best friend and my love, the full moon in my night sky. Thank you so much for seeing this through, because I know it hasn't been easy to do. Thank you for daring to be different this time around, and answering all the challenges life threw at us these past four months. I promise you I'm here to stay, through it all. Let us both continue to rise to the challenges and become closer and stronger through them, so that when it is time, there will be no walls between me, you, and "I do." Love you sweetie.

I love all of you. Dearly. Thank you SO much. Enjoy your holidays Ladies. From me to you - today is your day.

Ciao,

M.

P.S. also a special thank you to my BFF, Miss 'Ssadie Mae, and my brother and fellow entrepreneur, Miss Saba.

My Worst Fears

Halloween is coming up, which has nothing to do with why I'm writing this, but it has sensible irony so I thought I'd mention it.

Before there was a First Lady, my wirst fear was becoming successful without having anyone at my side to share it with (the experience, and the success). One of my quotes is "Beside every great man, there's a phenomenal woman (who runs the non-profit)," and even though theres a slight bit of humor there, it's very sincere and I believe it firmly. So much in fact that it scared me to think that I would become successful in business without becoming successful in love. And when I say scared, I mean losing sleep, borderline depressed-type scared. Sometimes when I was really down, that thought kept me that way.

Well, now I have my lovely, wonderful First Lady. And I've discovered that even though I finally found her, my greatest fear in life has not gone away; it has transformed. Now, the thing that scares me the most is losing her. And I guess it's just a part of building a relationship and being in love (especially given the conditions), but when you look at it, it's really the same fear as my first fear. And it acts the same way. When I'm down, or everything not sunshine and butterflies in the relationship, it haunts me. I have bad daydreams about it, and I still lose sleep over it. And I hate it. And it shouldn't be there. This is the love of my life, and the woman I plan to spend the rest of my life with. And she's there for me and I'm there for her. And even when stuff is hard we work through it. 

So WHY am I still haunted!?

...ciao.

M.

I'm Still Here

Hey I've been super super busy, so i havent blogged in a while. here's a quick update.

The First Lady and I are doing better than ever :)

Business is going good. We might even see some green before year-end!

My car is dead.

Trying to get my finances in order and stay busy and focused and not lose my mind from being stuck in the house.

The job hunt is not going too great. Anybody need an intermediate Flex programmer?

So yeah, I'll try to keep you all more posted from now on.

Sorry for being a bad blogger.

Ciao,

M.

One Month and Lovin' It (and her)!

Okay, its been a while, yes. I've been busy, so I haven't had a chance to blog. And theres a lot to blog about - between the car, work, business, and love, it's a lot to write about when ur busy.

But anyways, yesterday was the First Lady and I's one-month anniversary, so I figured now would be a good time to go ahead and write about us.

So let's see, what first... Aha! The second date.
So yeah, she decided on ice cream and then a trip to the park to play on the playground... I know, right? The playground? Just wait...
Now it just so happened that mom was out of town so I took her car in lieu of mine being broken down and headed on out to the Lady's house. I called her when I got there and she wasn't ready so I waited in the car for a bit, listening to my new mix CD I had just burned. Then... it happened. I lost my breath, started sweating, felling lightheaded, and a tad natious. I'm sitting in my car like WTF? Not now. WTF is this? Then it hit me - panic attack. Ugh. I'm not sure why but yep I was having a panic attack. She called me and invited me in the house b/c she was taking so long and I went in. Sat on the couch in her basement while she walked around getting ready. All the while drinking Vitamin Water like it was going out of style and trying to calm down. So she got ready, I got a glass of water, sucked it up, and we left. We went up to the Brusters and got her some ice cream (I was clearly in no condition for it) and sat down. She asked me what was wrong (its hard to hide a panic attack - you feel like trash) and so, I told her. We talked about it for a second, and I was like I'll be fine in a little bit. And she was cool. She ate her ice cream and I pulled myself together somewhat. So then we headed off to the park. I chewed some gum during the drive, which appeared to be the thing to make me feel better.

So we get to this big huge park (not the little one I thought we were going to that I passed on the way to her house). And go over to the playground, and she's like "lets take a walk til the kids are gone." Love it. Needed the fresh air and there was a nice big lake to walk around. And it was kinda dusky so it was very romantic too :) So we walked and hugged and held hands all the way around the lake. We joked and laughed a lot. She's got a great sense of humor, and for some reason think I'm funny... /shrug lol. And I love her smile. So one lap around the lake and it was still kinda light out and some kids were still there so we parked ourselves on a bench and did some overdue cuddling. Good stuff. We talked and joked some more and then I got to rub her legs again (they're super firm and super-smooth, remember?) while we talked. So after a while the kids were all gone and we went to the playground and commenced to... playing. No for real, like climbing, jumping, swinging, sliding, playing. And you know what? It was so much fun lol. I'm a big kid anyway but I was kinda questioning the playground as a date. Never again. If you haven't been, you need to get on the train.

So after playing and flirting and laughing and talking and joking she was looking for a good place on the playground to just chill. Well this jungle gym was one of those that had the little bridge that connects the two towers, so I was like let's go lay over there, and she followed. So I laid down and she laid down next to me and I held her and we looked at stars. It felt soooo good to have her that close to me. Oddly enough, the bridge was a lot more comfortable than I thought too. So after a while she turned over on her stomach (which is how she sleeps) and laid her head down on my chest. She was sooo cute lying there, and every time a car would drive by she would pop her head up and look at it drive by, like a little kitten. It was so cute. So at this point, what's going through my mind is "Now, how are we gonna work this kiss in?" And I thought about it and thought about it while we were laying there talking. Then, a car came by. And like clockwork she popped her head up to look. "Psssst." She looked down at me. Done. And she's a great kisser too :) Oh, and she's the first girl I've kissed with a tongue ring. And that's a lot of fun. It's like a little target - a minigame to play during the real the thing lol. So yeah, we laid there on that bridge and talked and made out for a good bit, and then she wanted to roam around the playground some more, so we did. Except this time we kissed each other at every turn lol.

So, I took her back home, and we sat there in front of her house. I asked her if she had a good time... she put her hand on the side of my face and turned my head to her, eye to eye, and thanked me for such a great time and told me she loved me and kissed me. It was great. She really does know how to make a guy feel appreciated, lol. I watched her in the house and left.
I called her when I got home and we talked about the date like we weren't the ones who went on it. It was so cool because she was so open about every little detail, and I love that openness.


Next, the block party.
Okay, so she had been planning this big block party for the youth at her church for a while now, and I ended up being in charge of grilling. I bought hamburger and hot dogs and my apron and spices. I wont go into all the nuances of the block party, but I'll say that it was super-fun, and all of her church ppl are very cool and friendly. I met her sister and brother, and they were super-cool. I also had a brief exchange with her mom, who made a joke that totally flew over my head lol. And the guests that came had good messages and good performances. So afterwards I helped her pack everything up and take it back to the church, where her car was also parked.
So we decided to go and get some ice cream at the same Brusters. I let her take point, since she knew how to get back to her side of town. And when I pulled my car up next to hers, I caught a glimpse of something that I thought surely was just my mind playing tricks on me. I rolled down my window and asked her to show me her hands. She wouldn't do it and kept acting like she didn't know what I was talking about, which confirmed what I had seen. So I watched her drive off and sure enough, there they were... driving gloves.

Pause the scene. For those who don't know me, I like cars. I like driving. I like women. I like women who drive. And I don't mean commute drive, I mean Dannica Patrick drive. Now I knew that the First Lady was into cars and racing, and she told me she was a different driver when she was driving alone, but driving gloves? Black and light blue driving gloves? People, you are now looking at a man who is totally smitten over a woman.

Play. So she pulled off, and the chase ensued. Oh BTW, Shiro is fixed and purring like a kitten... all 6 cylinders. Yessir. This girl drives. Hard. Not that I was struggling to keep up mind you (except when she totally blew thru a yellow). I pulled up next to her at some lights and she was paying no attention to me at all. She was blasting music fixing her hair in the mirror. Green light - hands on the wheel and she's into it. I love it. Love, love, love it. She's minus a few rules of the road.. like signaling, for instance, but she can handle a car.

So after quite a fun chase we arrived a Brusters and ordred our ice cream and sat across from each other on a bench. I made a joke about her having full length jeans on (she usually cuffs them) so I couldn't get to her legs to rub them. (Let me take this moment to remind you that I'm not a leg guy, which is testament to how amazing hers are). She replied "They're right there I don't know what you're talking about." She was trying me. Not only that thought, but she then proceeded to explain how SHE even thought they were EXTRA smooth today and she had to spend extra time putting lotion on them because they felt just that good. ... Tried, okay. Teased, certainly not. I rolled her jeans up a bit and slid my hand up the leg (that sounds so super sexual, it really wasn't like that... we're talking ankle to calf here) and Z O M G, she was not joking. It was smoother than the ice cream I was eating. So smooth that I got it confused with ice cream I was eating and wanted to eat it instead. She was laughing at my reaction and I sat there and rubbed it for a good little while. Then I relocated us to a bench behind Brusters in front of our cars where we sat, talked, made out, joked, laughed, made out, and then we decided to take pictures. That was super fun and super cute. We took a lot of good pictures, most of which are posted on my FB and MS. So after that we parted ways. Of course I called her when I got home and we talked into the wee hours of the morning.


So yeah, its been a great month. I don't get to see her as much as I want to because of her schedule constraints and my car being broken most of the past month. But I do talk to her a lot and when I do see her, it's pure bliss.


Stay tuned people. There's a lot of stuff going on. Tetris blocks are looming overhead, trying to fall into place.


Love you, Bunny.


Ciao,
M.

One Week in Love

So, as I'm sitting here on the phone with the High Lady, finally catching her up on all the goodness that's going on, I'm also counting down the hours until 2:56 AM - which will mark the First Lady (aka Inimitable Lady, I'll explain in a sec) and I's 1-week anniversary. :)

And what a great week it's been. We've talked and talked and talked and shared with each other almost every night. She's awesome. She's just plain awesome. I love her. She's so cute, and she's very honest and open and candid. When I said my goodbyes to PlentyofFish, where I met her, I was looking over my profile and reading the things that I was looking for in a woman. As I was going down, I was thinking of her, and just checking things off. She's everything I could have hoped for and more. I wanted a down girl who would be there by my side and grow with me. And that's exactly what she is. She's so supportive with everything, including New M. She's helping me pick logos for DRC right now :) The best I tell you, the best.

On another note, because of some conversation we've been having, and of course from talking to the High Lady just now, I got to thinking and re-evaluating some things about the two of them. First Lady's already told me that she gets me and High Lady's friendship and accepts it and accepts her (which is a good thing, no drama between the two of them). But I was thinking about the High Lady and myself, wondering if I was really over her and ready to move on. I've been over her for a while now, since we were back friends. But now that someone is here, ascending their way to what was once hers, am I really past those 10 years...?

Absolutely.

The First Lady brought forth feelings that I never really knew I even had. Well, I knew they existed somewhere, but I wasn't sure if they'd ever get awakened, so to speak. I've never been as happy as last week when she told me she loved me. And we fit each other so well, it's great. No offense to the High Lady, of course, because she was my first true love and she set a standard for the next Princess for sure. But what I'm saying is the First Lady is... well... the first lady to ever reach that bar, and she continues to surpass it. And I don't think she will stop until she reaches the crown. And when she does, I will gladly put it on her, without restraint.

It makes me really happy to know that I can do all this with the High Lady's best wishes, and when I crown my next and forever Princess, the High Lady will surely be present with well wishes for me and my new love. I'm sure of it. And I really hope and pray that I can someday see her crowned again by someone else who will treat her as a Princess deserves to be treated. She has really been and will always be a true friend to me, through thick and thin, no matter what. And in that light, only in that light, I love her very dearly.

And now, it's time to begin a new chapter in this movie that is my life. With the First Lady at my side, I can to build a dynasty to rule over, and a castle to live in. There's a whole world in front of me. And with her, I plan to take all I can of it.


Stay tuned... it only gets better...


Ciao,
M.

Wow....

You won't believe this. I know you won't because I'm still having trouble wrapping MY head around it.

I was on the phone with my Lead Actress last night and we talked for a while and made had some great conversation about sexy music and other stuff. While I was talking to her though, she hinted that she wanted to say something, but she wasn't sure she wanted to say it. I told her to take her time and just say whatever it was when she was ready. We continued our conversation until about 2:45am and exchanged our goodnights and got off the phone.

I got up to go put my headset on its dock, and I was walking across the room, I thought about what it could have been that she wanted to say. I had a pretty good idea, but I wasn't sure 100%. So I laid back down in bed, rolled over, and started off to sleep. About 2 minutes later, at precisely 2:51AM, my phone rang. I smiled. I rolled over to look @ the callerID, and there was that gorgeous picture of my Lead Actress. I answered. Her night voice is so sexy and seductive and relaxing. She went on to say that she felt like she was ready to tell me what she wanted to tell me. I rolled back over to get comfortable.

"Okay... ready?"

"Yeah..."

"Okay... here goes..." ...*deep breath*... "I love you."
....

I think I may have literally been glowing. I couldn't get the smile off my face, and my heart just melted. I laughed lightly, and said "I love you, too."

We went on for another 45 minutes back and forth. Every time she said it, I was just laughing with happiness. Both of us were like 2 high school girls who had just met their favorite pop star. It's official. She gave me permission to use the "b-a-b-y word" with her, which is apparently a big deal. And she used it with me. She commented that previous SOs had commented about the way she says it... and let me just affirm that whoever those gentlemen are, they're right. Absolutely right. The way "I love you, baby." rolls out of her mouth is soooooo seductive, it sound like the first time every time you hear it. I haven't been that happy since I can remember. When I got off the phone, I was literally rolling around in my bed laughing. I've never been so happy that I just laughed like that. This girl is bringing about lots of new feelings and emotions I've never known before... She's truly special, and definitely the hottest thing goin - now, and forever.

So yeah, just like that, my Lead Actress has just given me exclusivity. She's mine and all mine, and I'm all hers. And I've got no reason to doubt that this one will be the next and last to wear the crown. Until then, she is the Inimatable Lady of my Court, uncontested and unrivaled by any other.


Leaps and bounds people, we're making leaps and bounds.

Told ya it was gonna get interesting :)


Stay tuned, it only get's better from here...


Ciao,
M.

Casting is closed!..... Finally!

You've been waiting for it. I've definitely been waiting for it.

Yep! That's right! You guessed it! Casting for the female lead in this movie is now closed. I've reviewed the credentials of this particular candidate and we've finally got to see what she's like on-screen. And let me tell you, I'm very confident in this one. First off, she's gorgeous. Anytime she's on-camera, she just has an energy that lights up the screen. She's given nothing but stellar performances in every role thus far, and I'm suspecting that that won't stop anytime soon. She plays very well on camera and has no problem adding her own spice and flare to a scene. She's far more than I could have ever expected this soon in.

"Details, details!," you say?

Well, after a few months of talking and "missed connections (lol)" me and Bun finally met up for our first date. After a bit of planning we decided on bowling and @ about 8:15 Friday night I headed out to the No-street-light County where she lives. We were scheduled to leave @ 9, and I was late, due to navigation problems. Now what is it with women that no matter how much time they have, they always need "5 minutes."?? Whatever, it was well worth the drive and the wait, as I would soon find out. She finally came down and I put my bag n stuff in her back seat and got in to her car. She was wearing my favorite color, which looked great on her, and from what I could tell in the car lighting she was pretty. After a stop at the bank we made out way to the bowling alley and had some good smalltalk in between. I was very pleased to find out she drives much like I do, and the way she handles her car is quite sexy. I also noticed the music she was listening to, and breathed a slight sigh of relief, as I was slightly worried about her being too conservative for me. Stick a pin in that, we're coming back to it.

We got to the bowling alley and got all set up. I should have checked my email for coupons, cuz I forgot how expensive bowling is when you're not at your home alley. Anyway we got settled in, and I finally got to get a full body, full light, of what this girl looks like. Pictures do her justice, dont get me wrong, but in real life, this girl is absolutely stunning. Especially her face. Her hair is about shoulder length and has a great color with highlights that match her skin tone perfectly. She has radiant smile, and the kind of lips that look luscious even without gloss. Seeing her in person also gave me chance to really see the Filipina in her. You can really see it in her eyes and her nose. Her eyes are seductive, all the time, no matter what face she's making. As far as her body, nice. She wears loose clothes (except her jeans) so I couldn't really get a good read on my favorite part of the female anatomy. However, it was a joy to watch her bowl... she's got nice form. :) And I also noticed that she had very smooth-looking legs. Stick a pin in that we're coming back to it.

So after a very competitive game of bowling that I lost 2-1 (she thinks she lost b/c she never broke 100 and I won the last game), we decided to head back. On the way, she asked me if I'd be coming in, and I said yes. So when we got back, we went in the house and sat down and played with the dog a bit. She fixed me a glass of water and we started watching TV. After a while, she went and changed into a tee and some basketball shorts. Again, loose shirt, couldn't get a clear read. But I would soon find something else to occupy my time. I was playing around in her hair, and then the dog came and parked his head on the opposite side of me. So she reaches her foot over me to kick him away, and I see this girl's leg sitting in my lap. I'm not a leg guy. Not at all. But this girl's legs just looked like... I don't even know, but eventually I had her lay with both her legs across my lap and I started running my hands over them. It was like running your hands over solid cream. It was so smooth, in all directions. She's a walking advertisment for whatever razor she uses. And they were thick, yet firm and athletic. It was like nothing I had seen or touched before. I know I must have rubbed this girls legs for like an hour. Not that she wasn't enjoying it, because she was. And the way she says thank you after I've given her a compilment, the way she says it is such a turn-on. Ah, that's another thing. She's from a lot of different places, so she doesn't have any one accent. She says a lot of different words different ways depending on the mood. Very cute. Anyways so after a while, she decided to move over to the sofa with me. So I went over and got into position and she layed on top of me back to me. We chilled like that for a bit, and I discovered that her whole body is smooth. So after a while she took the back cushion off the couch to give her more room and she lay down next to me with her head on my shoulder like she was going to sleep. She's very nice to hold in any position. She's not super-skinny, nor is she fat so she has curves and her body is very soft. So I was just rubbing her arms and she layed there enjoying the smell of my cologne (Obsession Night was a good choice after all), when she did something that raised my eyebrow a bit. I has told her about this in an earlier phone conversation, so maybe she was calling my bluff, but as she lay there next to me in my arms, she asked me in the softest, sweetest voice to run my fingers through her hair. I smirked on the inside. I'm fond of running my fingers through hair, and not to toot my own horn, but I'm pretty good at it. So okay, I decided to have some fun. (Take notes). So I started off with just a casual run, not touching her head at all. As if I was just trying to detangle it. Then, a sweeping cascading motion maybe grazing the scalp by accident. On a side note, earlier I was playing with her hair on the other couch and brushed my fingertips and her hair along her neckline and she jumped away from me and started shivering... yeah... So next we get into the scalp. Brush from the front and wrap around the back, brush off at the nape behind the ear... this is a huge tease and good prep for the next one. The next brush is a technical one because it involves using different finger for different things. Start brushing lightly through, close to the ear. As you wrap around, get the finger closest to the ear and just lightly touch the top of the ear as you brush around to the back of her neck. Brush off, but not as quickly as last time. Slow down, so she can savor it, and then lift directly off. Keep doing this, each time moving your ear finger and little bit further behind the ear, until your brushing the part where the ear meets the head. Now, her face will be dead giveaway by this point if you're doing this right. But sometime you can't see her face (I don't even like to look). Pay attention to her breathing and her entire body. Her breaths should be relaxed but erratic, from the gasping. Her shoulder should tense up - when this happens make the brush a bit firmer until they relax a bit. She may also be rubbing her thighs against each other (or you, depedning on how shes laying) and her feet will playing footsie with each other. At this point, you can now do a variety of things, and she probably wont mind any of them, if you've played right up to this point. I decided to stay in the hair with a finishing brush. Similar to the last one, lightly touching the ear as we go around, but in the back of her neck we stop and make a firm circle or two, and then wrap all the way down and brush out lightly on the neck (from earlier, yep). Poor thing didn't know what to do with herself. After a couple times doing that, she threw in the towel and sat up to catch her breath and gain her composure. So she laid back down after a bit and was still talking to be about it, and I looked down and noticed that her neck was open. I belw on it and she jumped up and said she was going over to the other couch. It was so cute. But... before she went there she tried me. Tried me very hard, too. I like the way she plays. Very similar to my style and loads of fun. As she was going over me to get off the couch she stopped in the middle of her move and was sitting on top of me cowgirl, though she tried to not make it obvious because she kind of froze her self mid-move and her upper body was still to the side. I looked at her in a way to acknowledge her trying me, and she resumed her climb. It was so funny, yet so sexy at the same time. We both were playing our own little hard flirting games and having fun doing it. I had already said I wasn't going to go all the way there with her on the first date, but the way things were going it could have very well happened. She tested me one final time before I decided that it was super-late and I should head out before I fall alseep there and her people get back in from their vaca. So I admitted defeat to her little test, and she told me I sucked (lol, in a playful way) and she walked me out. She came down to my car and I started it up and got back out and we stood there. She asked me about this little moment the night after when were having our postgame about the night (which was something else I like about her). I stood there with her and we hugged for a good little bit and when we pulled away, I was running though my mind if I shoud kiss her or not. I'm really suprised I didn't, as sleepy and incoherant as I was. But before I had the change to think about it too much she grabbed my face and kissed me right on my cheek. I was too tired to be shocked at this point, but it did wake me up a little bit. She just kind of took it, too. In afterthought: I was slightly disappointed in myself because I should have just kissed her, but sort of turned on because she kind of stole that one from me. She's got some fight in her... and I like that. :D (Batman). It won't happen again though. The first date is over, and she's had her best-girl-friend-tell-me-everything consultation and come up with her game plan, so now I have to be serious.

I'm SO looking forward to this. I've never had one with this much energy and that plays this well. I enjoy her and she enjoys me, just as we are. She's smart and makes great conversation. She's a good girl and a bad girl at the same time and has mastered command over them both. She's a proper lady when the time calls, and sweet enough to bring home to the folks. Though, I'm curious to see how far her bad girl side goes, because I get the feeling I only got the tip of the iceberg. She thinks she's yet to see my true colors. She has seen them, just not ALL of them. Theres a couple more hues in the crayon box that don't get used very often. I think she might be the first to see them in a long time. I thought that she was super-conservative and I was wrong about that. HOW wrong remains to be seen :) But with us both wearing our war paint and game faces, the next scenes in this movie should be VERY interesting.

Ah, and I've been named "The Professional", after the movie. Honored by this, I'm changing the name again, from "Bun" to "The Lead Actress." She's making leaps and bounds, huh?

Stay tuned...

Ciao,
M.

She has a name... and a speed dial number :)

Yes, it's true. The beautiful young lady who has been previously been mentioned as the Filipina, has made speed dial #2. Now for those of you who don't know (which is none of you), speed dial #2 is reserved for the important lady in my life. And of course, she couldn't be that important and not have a more official name the "Filipina."That said, due to the many caking references that have been made around our relationship and conversations we had, she has thus been deemed "Bun."

She's awesome :) She's got the coolest personality, and has great conversation. So we'll see where this one goes. It's been so great this far, and I'm really looking forward to the pursuit :)


Cheers Bun,
M.

VA Roadtrip - Sunday

What a time! So Sunday I woke up and finally got mom up out of the bed. After stirring around for a bit, we decided to go see her best friend from way back, since she was right up the street from Grampa's house. So we got to her house and man-oh-man. ./fadeway BALLIN! You know me - sucker for houses and cars. Nice-size corner-lot house and a BMW, Hummer, and a Benz in the driveway. My first question was "What is SHE doing!?" So her and mom saw each other and went back to middle school for like 5 minutes, screaming and hugging at each other. But it was good to see her though, I can't even remember the last time I saw her. She still looked the exact same and has the same voice and accent. Shoot if that BMW didn't belong to her man, I might try to wife her :) lol j/k. So we chilled there for a bit and talked and hung out. It really was a good time seeing her again.

So me and mom decided it was time to go get something to eat, since it was pretty late in the day and we hadn't eaten. We decided on IHOP and headed to the nearest one. So we go there, got a table, and ordered our food. We started talking and literally 6 minutes later, here come our food. I was like WTF? I always have a Belgian waffle and had particularly been craving one today. So I ordered that along with the smokehouse combo which includes sausage, eggs, and hash browns. Mom ordered the same except with some kind of healthy pancakes. So both our sausage was not done, the has browns were raw, my waffle was completely destroyed (how do u mess up a waffle!?), and moms pancakes were not cooked all the way through. Nothing was cook, except (maybe) the eggs. So of course, we asked politely for them to take it back and bring us new food. Honestly if I was the waitress, I wouldn't have even bought the food out like that. I wish I had taken a picture - it was disgraceful. So the food goes back and mom and I start talking again. She looks up and directs my attention to a waitress @ the food window eating sausage off a plate and licking her fingers clean. She was shortly after joined by one of her co-workers. Strike 2. So a few minutes later our food comes back. Wow. Why is there a chunk out of my sausage? Why is there a cut in my moms sausage? Why are my eggs brown? Oh! Because this is the SAME food thats been thrown back on the grill and then mixed up when brought back!!! Can you believe that? I mean seriously... We spoke to the manager and left for my aunt's house. I dropped mom off there and called up my bestest friends to see if they were ready to meet up. My little cousin wanted to tag along so we headed over to the good ol' west end. I got there and knocked on the door. The nostalgic bark of Demi was gone (rest her soul... she was a good dog), but Mama McCarthy answered the door and wow! She cut her hair. I never thought I'd see the day. Other than that though, everything was the exact same. I got in and there was Erin. I was so happy to see her, because it's been such a long time since I last saw her. She's quite the little hottie lol, with the same red hair, and a sexy little raspy voice :) So we chilled and talked and caught up. And as I sat in the living room - I noticed everything was in the exact same place as it's always been. The same TV, same stack of VHS tapes, same lamp, same everything. It was soooo crazy. Then I noticed this beautifully airbrush acoustic guitar, and it dawned on me - they ALL play guitar. Erin's a singer/songwriter now, just like her mom, so that masterfully painted guitar was a birthday present to her from her mom. Pat got there and it was a good 2 hours of reminiscing after that :) It was so great to see all of them. When I finally learn to play guitar, Erin's gonna come down to ATL and play with me in Lil Five lol. So I dropped my little cousin off @ work and headed north for Stafford, to my Dad's house.

So I got there, and had dad look @ Shiro, cuz I didn't think she was doing so good on the road the whole trip. So we were all into it, and all of a sudden the light we were using went off, and so did the driveway light. A few minutes later, my youngest brother comes out of the house to tell us all the lights just went out. And this started a classic scene of suburban American neighborhoods:
A few houses down on the other side of the street a guy comes out of his house, and the guy nextdoor to him comes house. The first guy yells "Yall's power go out!?" "Yep!," replies the neighbor. The lady across the street on the corner from dad come out on her deck and yells down the street to the two guys "Ya'll got power!?" "Nope," they reply. Says the lady: "And I was just trying to toast a bagel!" "Oh so its YOUR fault then!," one of the neighbors replies, jokingly. Yuk-yuk-yuk - they all laugh it up. I was just smiling at the spectacle. My dad made it down to the end of the driveway and joined the conversation. "Looks like the power's out," he says to all the neighbors. Another guy come out from his house just as dad says that: "Yep, I was microwaving popcorn, and all-a-sudden the lights went out!" Dad joins in on the jokes: "Oh, so you're the reason the power went out!" "Guilty," the guy replies. Ha-ha-ha; they all laugh it up. It was so great. I was cracking up on the inside. The kind of stuff you only see in the movies. I can't wait lol. My stepmom came back eventually with ice cream, and within the hour there was a soccor game going under carlight, and the ice cream was being served out of the back of my oldest little brother's SUV. Someone even came around and was like "We just came back from buying illegal fireworks, you guys wanna light some off?" I'm like seriously!? How coincidental can you get!? Oh and I met my little sister's boyfriend. I was gonna deck him, just to get him in line - then I found out he's a BMW guy; drives a 5 series. I couldn't deck an upstanding young fellow like him :) And they seem to to get along well. My sister's probably more the antagonist anyway, lol.

So after that was all said and done, we ate dinner in the house and played some Boggle, then headed to bed. The power came back on right around midnight. Shortly after, bed.

My Trip Back To VA - Friday and Saturday

Hey all,

It's been a bit. So I went to VA, and it was quite a trip. It almost didn't happen though...

Friday morning was supposed to be smooth sailing; had it all planned out. Downtown to get paycheck and back by 9:30. hair @ 10, out @ 1:30. So I get downtown and GSU has miraculously deposited my paycheck into someone else's account! Brilliant! Especially considering I don't have direct deposit. That threw my whole morning off. Of course, politics and red tape wouldnt allow them to just cut me a check and so I waited to see if they would get it resolved. Needless to say my hair appointment got canceled. No dreads. Ugh...

But we eventually got on the road to North Carolina. I was a little worried about Shiro, but she got us there, and with good gas mileage to boot! Since we left so late, I decided to stay in North Carolina with mom and leave in the morning for VA. Mom convinced me
to stay in NC until she was done with my little cousin's graduation (I couldn't go because since I wasn't planning on going, I didn't bring proper attire) and take her with me to VA so she could attend my Granny's 80th birthday party, which I thought was a rather optimal solution. I got to see a lot of family on my mom's side that I hadn't seen in a while and give my little cousin some good off-to-college advice. Good kid, he's got a full ride to study architectural engineering by the Air Force. So anyway we took some BBQ to go, and mom and I headed off to VA with a prayer. Oh, forgot to mention - I got $200 in graduation money! God will certainly make a way, huh?

We got to VA just a little late, but still in good time. Granny's birthday party was more like a family reunion. They had T-Shirt's and everything. And of course, everybody in Richmond was there; and of course, they were all related to me somehow ???? I don't think I'll ever understand the family tree. My stepmom seems to have a pretty firm grasp of it though. So she was helping me out with the people who were congratulating me on graduation and saying they hadn't seen me in a long time (I don't remember seeing them EVER, but hey - whatever lol).

Anyways it was a very nice event. Afterwards I called up the High Lady and arranged our usual movie date. I took mom to Grampa's house and got myself cleaned up, then I headed for the High Lady. She was beautiful as usual, but I found myself a little less concerned with that than normal - probably something to do with Filippina (for another post). We went to see Kung Fu Panda, which turned out to be an AWESOME movie! I wasn't looking forward to it at all, other than spending time with the High Lady. But it was funny, and the action was off the chain. Great movie for all ages. So after the movie was over, and I was waiting on the High Lady to go to the bathroom, I decided to call Filipina. I had txted her when the movie started to tell her I was in the movies and I'd call her when I got out. She answered the phone sounding sleepy. When I commented on it and asked why she was still up, she replied "...'cuz I was waiting for you..." Melted my heart... adorable :)

So I took the High Lady back home and exchanged pleasantries and stuff and went back to grampa's house. It took me FIFTEEN minutes to wake mom up to let me in the house lol. I was a little irate, cuz even @ 1AM it was hot as all outdoors in VA.

Bed.

Pre Roadtrip Update

Why hello everyone!

So Friday I'm roadtripping back to VA for a few days. Just wanted to update on M-life before I set out.

School: What school!? HA! j/k... I've officially graduated (I checked my grades) AND I passed my field study class with a B!! $1000 scholarship FTW!!!

Cars: Shiro is fixed and insured, and hopefully ready to take the trek to VA and back. With gas prices soaring, I'm starting to rething the M3... but I want it SO BAD! May get a 1-series until we get this whole fossil fuel thing under control.

Romance/Relationships: Me and the Fillipina are still talking :) She likes me :) She plays video games and shops at EB :) First date is slated for Incredible Hulk release day, though she will not confirm the date. I'm a little wary due to that, and the fact that it's Friday 13... not to say that im superstitious, but sometimes u just dont wanna chance stuff, ya know? Anyways I can't wait to finally hook up with this girl in the physical world. She makes great conversation and did I mention she is drop-dead gorgeous? Cute personality too :)

Friends: Well, all my friends that went poof during the whole Drama Queen Fiasco are now my friends again, including the Drama Queen (only apparently she's not a Drama Queen anymore, so I guess I'll have to come up with another name for her... hmmm MySpace Girl is fitting seeing as thats where we met and never made it past there... so yeah MySpace Girl, though I doubt she'll be mentioned again). Also, one of my friends form high school in VA has moved to Atlanta! And apparently he's still quite prolific and plays WoW (which truly speaks to the addicting power of WoW - this guy def. didn't strike me as the WoW type). But yeah he's here, trying to do it big and claim his little piece of the American Dream like we all are.

Ah, and the First Lady of our little band of thugs (the first cool girl we met in college and invited into our inner circle), Roses has finally had her baby! Isabella "Izzy" Theodore is the little one's name, and we welcome her to this world with much love and blessings. I'll post a pic if I can get one.

M: I'm getting my head above water again, financially speaking, and hopefully I won't sink again. Hopefully I can get on dry land and stay there, maybe build a house out of hundred-dollar bills.... But all is well in the world of M. Life after undergrad is eh. I'm trying to become a teacher here in GA, which is harder than one would think... But I'll do a separate post about that.

My roadtrip to VA should be fun. I talked to my two first best friends in the whole wide world and we're gonna get together and hang out, which I'm really looking forward to. Now that me and the High Lady are on good terms, I'll surely be hanging out with her. And It's my Granny's birthday so I'll enjoy that :) The following weekend is my little bro's graduation from high school, which I'm going to miss b/c I have to be back in GA for work, unfortunately. I really wanted to go, especially since they all came down for my graduation.

And, if all goes well, I'll be heading to Japan two week after I get back! ./fingers crossed!





Ciao,
M.

A Little Bit on the High Lady

Hmm... yeah this needs to hurry up and get out of my system. Well, where to start? The High Lady, formerly known as The Former, formerly known as The Princess. What can I say? I was in love with the girl for as long as I can remember. It should be about 11 years this year. She's my best friend, truly my best friend. She knows me like no one else does. We've never dated, never slept with each other, and only kissed twice. But she is a piece of my heart.

Well last year close to this time (read back to my VA trip when I got my car, Shiro) we kind of came to a crossroads as to what to do about us. We loved each other. I loved her, she loved me. But she was not ready to move forward. And because of circumstances behind that - we went our separate ways. I was hurt. Very hurt. So was she. She is the origin of the title Princess. I was 100% sure that I was going to marry this girl. And when this happened and we parted ways, I erased that title from my world, as I did every memory of her and us - all stored to the back of mind. It took a long time but, using my anger and disappointment as fuel, I successfully managed to lock her away... and thus was born The Former.

Well you can look back and see what happened to bring her back in my world, into my Court as a High Lady. And she was here for my graduation. So what now? Well that's what I wanted to touch on. Things worked out that she stayed with me during her visit here this past weekend. I already mentioned that when I started talking to her again I realized how much of a friend she really was, and well she really knew me. But that doesn't begin to touch the surface of who this girl really is. When she was a Princess, she rightfully deserved that title.

Let me say this - you can appreciate something 100% when you have it. I think thats possible. BUT, if you take that thing away, and even oppose that thing for a period of time; when that thing comes back into your life you appreciate it far beyond 100%. It's a whole new level that you cant realize until that thing is taken away from you and put back. Now mind you, "the breakup" last summer was the 3rd time she has left and somehow made it back into my life. When she got here in Atlanta, she just fell right back into place, as if the previous year had not even happened. And I paid attention to every little detail while she was here - and I understood then why it was that I loved her so much. The way she carries herself, the way she acts around me, everything about her is a perfect fit to me. She doesn't see the little things because it's who she is, but I do. And she's grown up too. I've watched her grow up for many, many years. I've seen her though nearly every one of her phases, and I have to say that I'm proud of her. She's dealt with a lot - and to see her grow into the mature, strong, smart young lady she is today is heartwarming for me. She's my best friend. She will always be my best friend. I trust her with anything, as she does me.

So what does all that mean? Well, it means that there's definitely a part of me that still loves her. It's not nearly as big a part of me as it was before. It does sometimes bother me that we aren't together - but not nearly as much as it used to. I have moved on from the person I was a year ago. And I'm not going back to being that person. There will not be a girl that can replace her bit for bit - that's a given, but a few show potential of being crowned. And what does this mean for them, the girls I date? Nothing. It means I have a best friend who I used to be in love with and who used to be in love with me - nothing more than that. I have moved on from those days and I'm looking for a new leading lady in this movie that is my life. The High Lady and I could end up together - but it's unlikely because we're at different points in our lives. But as I said, she will always be my best friend, no matter what happens. Thus is the existence of the High Lady., and the nature of our relationship.





Ciao,
M.

Graduation Day!!!

Graduation Day. May 10th, 2008.... Wow. So crazy....

Up bright and early getting everyone ready to head over to mom's house and convoy out. When we got to moms house, apparently no one there wanted breakfast so she didn't make any. So me, High Lady, and mom got busy on that. Waffles, eggs, bacon, and applesauce :). Good stuff.

Got everyone dressed and organized and headed for the Dome.
Thanks Charma for the good directions!

So we got there and got everyone parked and organized and seated. Once that was done, I headed "backstage" with the graduates and met up with a few of my D-Pi brothers. As we sat and awaited the line-up we all talked, I took a short nap, and listened to some music. They started getting the procession together and taking everyones picture. Then we heard the announcement on the other side of the curtain and the roar of the crowd. Everything was just buzzing and full of excitement as we walked through the concourse to the field. As we got closer, you could notice that everyone was on their cell talking to their parents trying to find themselves for pictures :) It was so funny. I was getting backstage video footage from one phone and talking to my mom on another, lol. It was so exciting to walk on to that field with everyone. We were seated, we did the nat'l anthem, then Andrew Young spoke. He's a really good speaker, and his speech was quite motivational. So was Pres. Patton's. Eventually, they had us stand for commencement. It really takes the video to show the excitement and energy. When Pres. Patton had us "move our tassels from the right to the left" everything just erupted. It was so great. Then we all sat down and they started doing the individual schools. Of course, they saved the best for last... Ryan and I pulled out some dollar bills, and when Pres. Patton said "...alll undergraduate student from the J. Mack Robinson C...." our whole section just blew up. Like I said- you have to see the video to understand how awesome it really was.

So there was a bit more ceremony and it was over. I called my mom, only to find out that they all left early. And I'd just like to say to all of them, for the record, that was trifling. Just plain trifling. And, of course, my mother had my keys, so not only did they leave me there - they left me stranded there. I wasn't gonna let it ruin my day though. They came back and I got my keys and went back to the apartment with my lil cousin and the High Lady, and changed clothes.

Theres a very, very nice guy who lives across the street from my mother (he's an awesome painter too) who volunteered to do all the BBQing. The weather stayed nice, despite bad weather reports an we all cooked out outside and took lots of pictures. The food was delicious.

The high Lady and I returned to my apartment after I took her through Orchard Knob to see all the nice houses, and we went straight to sleep lol. Both of us were dead tired from the day. I woke up because it was too early for me to go to bed, so I did some misc. things. She woke up later and we laid in the bed and talked for a while and then went to bed for the night. I took her back and saw everyone off from my mom's apartment in the morning and then it was time for Mother's Day. It was great having everyone there.

The day before graduation day!

I graduate tomorrow! Be sure and read the pre-update update before this posts so you can be caught up on all thats going on.

Family came into town, the ceremony was really nice, everything was great. My Aunt Debbie flew in from Cali with her husband and kids - I'm so glad they came because I haven't seen her in so long. Pretty much everyone from my dad's side came down. And thankfully, the High Lady came (more on that later).

Friday morning was super busy. I got up early and went to pick mom's car up (mine is still broken down :( ). Had to go downtown to pick up my cap and gown and turn in my papers to get paid at my new job @ the library. Once that was done, mom and I went shopping @ Costco then Kroger. Mom acted like she had never been to a Costco before and so she was running around sampling everything and taking forever. This is the same mother, mind you, that woke me up @ 9a that morning talking about we had things to do and I needed to get moving. =/

While we were in Kroger though, an interesting thing happened. Dad and the High Lady were using me as a switchboard earlier that morning to arrange High Lady being picked up. Being that I was quite sleepy when they were calling, I made a mistake and dialed speed-dial 2 on my phone, which is reserved for the important girl in my life - Filipina. I thought I hung up before the call went through so I thought nothing of it. Well, as I was walking into Kroger, she called me.... to check on me and make sure nothing was wrong since I called her so early. Really? Wow. Brownie points for her (and me, since I had to explain to her the whole speed-dial 2 thing) =)

So after Kroger we went back to Moms house and I passed out in the living room floor, until it was time to go get my hair done. So I asked my stylist while I was there if she knew anyone who could do dreads, and she said she could, and I even got to see some that she had done, and they looked great! And she said she'd only charge me 80 bucks to lock 'em! SWEET. I have an appointment in 2 weeks :)

Left and picked up my little sister, and shortly after the family started rolling in. Mom needed me to go back to the store, so I took the High Lady with me and we went shopping. Brought everything back and shortly after took the High Lady and my little cousin back to the apartment. Somehow, it happened that EVERYONE was over that night. We mingled for a bit, then the High Lady got sleepy so I put her to bed and went back out to hang with the boys for a while. We had our usual mix of video games and banter, and I retired early, knowing I had to get up in the morning and graduate from college =)

Pre-Update Update

Hey all,

I know it's been a while... but I've been going through some stuff. Anyways, basically it was all financial - bills need to be paid, car broke down, in between jobs, lots of stuff...

With all that, and trying to graduate I was pretty stressed out and hot a lot to deal with. But I'm back, and I have a lot of updating to do, so lets get to it.

My car:
Shiro broke down about 2 weeks ago. The last day of class before finals to be exact. I was on my way to school and as soon as I got on the highway it overheated. So I pulled off to Goodyear and they looked at it and said it was a 300-some-odd dollar fix to my thermostat. I didnt have it so I brought Shiro back to the apartment and there she sits. The guy that worked on my car (not the shop mgr, who gave me the estimate) said that he had bled the system and it was fine to drive home. I've driven it twice since then (no highway or major driving though) and she's been fine. I'm gonna have my mechanic look at it and fix it though anyway, since he says 200$ will do the job. Then theres the matter of getting her insured again... x_X

My job:
Well I'm happy to say I'm back at the GSU Library working with the awesome web team there on a special project for special collections. It's a temp assignment though June that could turn into something longer, or perhaps even (semi)permanent. It pays well, so here's hoping x..(-.-)..x

My efforts in trying to teach high school are bearing no fruit as of this moment.

I'm gonna contact Delta lady one more time, just for kicks - just to see if she'll actually respond.

Romance:
Well, it sort of seems that one girl in particular is taking a shine to me (wow... I sounded like I was 40 just then lol). But anyways she's a beautiful little Filipina, very smart, funny, and California cool :). She made speed dial 2, so I'd venture to guess I'll be mentioning her again - so we'll call her Filipina, for now. Stay tuned.

Friends:
Well me and my friend who had a falling out around the same time as the whole Drama Queen thing are back friends, I guess.

The High Lady and I... well you already know that story. We're back friends. Nothing more than that.

4980 Clear!

BUSA 4980 final done, and I think i did pretty damn good too. we'll see!

On another note... this entre field study class has turned out to be a rather disappointing experience. I'm talking to my professor next week to make sure it doesnt end up costing me my graduation. If it does, me and this lady im "interning" for are gonna have a serious problem.



Ciao,
M.

Crank that Graduation, then put your Diamonds up!

Got my graduation ticket today, ordered my cap and gown. It's on a poppin! (I hope).

Then I took my Geog lab final early because, well...


JAY-Z!!!

Thanks to my little, I had seats 15ft. from the stage to the Jay and Mary Heart of the City show here in Atlanta. And man was it just spectacular. Mary puts on a great show, and Hov is just... he's Hov. Special guests included Jeezy and Diddy. And in the front row of course you spot quite a few celebrities. Sightings included Tyler Perry, girls from Xscape (tall light skinned one with short hair, I wonder if she's single, cuz she was BAD!), Cee Lo, Jazze Pha (sup Jazze!), some girl from a making the band, and others. It was just an amazing show. I did live updates throughout via Twitter - see them here (updates start April 8th at 10:11AM, just scroll back thru the archives.)



Ciao,
M.

Net it Out, and its All Good!

So the drama with NRI (now FRI) is over and done with. How'd it go down? Well, day after she gave me the unofficial boot, she text me as if everything was cool, asking what I was doing. Well I happened to be on the phone with The Former (now a Lady again...read on) catching up. So I replied "I'm on the phone, catching up." To which she replied "Probably with your ex, dont know why I even bothered..."

And so begins the magnificent court-worthy battle of text messages as to the nature of my relationship with the Former, and the blog post about her voice "soothing me," and so on. So she just keeps telling me this story about how things are with me and the Former, and I keep telling her what's ACTUALLY going on (a.k.a. the truth)... I mean, this IS my movie. I wrote it, I know how it goes. Me and the Former started talking (like conversation, not romantically) again. I was upset over FRI's sickness (which, mind you, she still has not acknowledged...), and I called the Former because she's my best friend and know exactly how to make me feel better, which is exactly what she did. I don't have feelings for her like that anymore (well, read on...), I just needed a friend - a female one because none of my male best friends would have provided the emotional support that I needed at that time, not to mention none of them gave a damn about FRI because she Menos'ed them (read on...). So anyways, I was upset, I called my friend, she made me feel better. Yes I did used to love her, but if you go back in the script to how that ended, you can clearly understand that that's no longer the case. She was at one time a love interest, but she has always been (and always will be) a friend. So was I wrong for calling her? Was I wrong for being honest that she made feel better? I don't think so... you tell me.

Anyways, she refuses to believe me and I'm starting to lose my patience with the whole thing. I had been laughing it off because it was just interesting to see a Drama Queen in action. I couldn't believe it - I mean the writing on the wall (or, the blog I should say) couldn't have been clearer. So she goes on and on, and then she does the unthinkable: she called me liar. Yes. Yep. Mhmm. A liar. Me... laughing stopped, patience lost, serious matter. So I asked her to point out the lie, tell me what I lied about, and you know what she does... "Dont worry about it we're done..." type of thing. Needless to say, I got pissed, shortly regained my composure, and left her with some... professional... words and left her to be.

Now with that, I was done, and relieved, except for one thing: The Menos. The Menos is FRI's personal MySpace deletion army. When FRI gets pissed and you don't perform to her expectations, the Menos come'a'marchin' to haul you right out of her MySpace world of existance which parallels her real life. Now I've seen the Menos in action before (remember I said none of my friends cared for her... yeah). So, I sent messages to her two cousins, who I had become good friends with (before she was NRI), just to tell them I hope we still stay friends.

Now, lets break from that for a bit to get some sunshine through the rain. Simultaneously, as NRI becomes FRI, I was undergoing heavy peace talks with the Former. We had been catching up and talking and texting ever since FRI was sick, and so I began to think: maybe it was time to see if we can put this back together. In talking to her those few days, I realized just how awesome of a friend she really was to me. How great it was to talk to her. How much I still cared about her. So we kept talking all the way through the breakup... had a good laugh over how stupid the whole thing was...

Cut back to FRI - So that was over, the Menos eventually came...

Cut back to the Former... So after settling with FRI, I decided I was ready to bring the Former back. I think we had enough time apart to realize how much we meant to each other and to better ourselves for interacting with each other. But there was one thing I had to be clear on, to mentally prepare myself for her being a part of my life - so I asked her: "Is there a chance that you will ever love me as I loved you back then."

[*gasp*... dramatic pause... symphonic buildup]

Her answer was a 7-8 page text message. Now rewind back to the death scene, when she walked away crying, leaving my dead, lifeless body on the floor in a pool of black ink, leaking from my broken heart (deep.. i know right!?). Now take that text message and add it to her script right after I ask "Why?". Perfect. It was exactly the answer I needed. Everything made so much sense. I couldn't believe it. I knew it all the long, but I never thought she'd actually say it. I almost cried I was so happy. And with that, ladies and gentlemen, the Former is no more. But neither is the Princess. We talked about what was, what is, and what could be, and agreed that we're not going to repeat the last 10 years (especially not the latter part of it). I am delighted to say the she has been welcomed back, formally, as a High Lady of the Court. Hmm... one day, I should really explain that whole title system... but for now just know that a High Lady is the highest title a female constituent of mine can have - essentially they are the best of the best of my female friends. Exciting, isn't it =D

Now, finally the last of FRI: her two cousins are still my friends, which I'm very happy for. (I don't want to put them on sides, but I honestly think they understand where I'm coming from, even just a lil bit). And a good friend of mine, Kalil, introduced me to PlentyofFish.com - a GREAT FREE online dating site. Completely Free. With all the features. And lot's of people. So I've got some prospects there, and have just generally met some cool females.

So I lost FRI - ah and lets change her name from "The One that Could Have Been" to "The Drama Queen" - after that episode, it's SO much more fitting. And plus, she really couldn't have been...

I kept two good friends, regained my High Lady, and met some cool new friends.

Net it out, and its AAAAALLL GOOOOOD!
:)

Stay tuned - there should be some new adventures in dating coming up soon, plus the last 3rd of the semester b4 graduation, and some New M stuff.

Ciao ciao people,
M.

My Commitment to You, the Viewer

So in light of recent drama (exciting, huh), I'd just like to be sure that everyone (yes, all 2 of you) who reads this blog has a full understanding of what it is.

This is real. Everything that happens. If it's something deep, it's what on my mind or form my heart. I do not edit anything out, other than peoples names. I don't go back and censor or change posts, other than editing grammar (sorry im an addicted proof reader).
Because this is personal, there might be somethings in here that aren't clear because it's an inside thing - but most things are explained as clearly as possible while still protecting peoples identities. I write because it makes me feel better, and so I have written records of the lessons I've learned and to give people a little more introspect as to why I am how I am.

I hope you all (all 2 of you) enjoy following this story. I try to tell it as best I can. If theres anything that's left out that you'd like explained, post a comment about it. I'll either reply with the answer, or say I can't say.

100% real - that's my commitment to you, the viewer.

Stay tuned, and enjoy the show.



Ciao,
M.

This is what I get for blogging...

Ahhh. Communication. I love it. Bridges gaps, creates understanding, irons out wrinkles... it's just great. Why would anyone not wanna use it.

So NRI reads the last blog post. Know what she gets out of it? Nothing about me and how I feel, and us, and all that. The last paragraph about the Former. I get a text message quoting that paragraph followed by "we're done talking."

"We're done talking"? That's exactly the problem!

./sigh. The Former, The Ex, The One that Got Away, and now... The One That Could Have Been.

Story of my life...

Stay tuned.

M.

A simply draining weekend...

Hm. I just don't understand sometimes why it's me.
*Note* The "new romantic interest" will here in be referred to as "NRI, her, or she"

So (I thought) we worked through the earlier mentioned issues and were moving forward. Happy flirting Thursday, happy flirting Friday. Maybe date on Saturday. Wake up Saturday morning to a "good morning" txt from her and find out she's in the hospital. She's pretty sick, generally (I knew this beforehand, no biggie for me.) So the day goes by and it gets really bad, I'm praying and providing support to her fam, and checking on her via txt all day (no we still havent physically met, mainly due to her sickness...). She gets better Saturday night and is back home. Now let me just say, "sick" and "really sick" doesn't quite do it any justice - I was really preparing myself for the worst. And "gets better" doesn't really pin it either... but that kind of a personal thing and I'm not trying to go there in my blog. So because of all this text message interaction with her cousin (who I am SO thankful to for keeping me updated throughout the day), her mom gets to thinking I'm her boyfriend, for real-for real. Given the way things were going, I wouldn't have said she was too far off. So, her mom invites me to dinner the next day (Sunday, today). (If you've been following along you know that we haven't been out on a date, and that's what stopped me from meeting the fam last week) But her mother invited me, and given that I really thought I was going to lose this girl, I was all in for it. In fact, I was going to go see her whether we were going to dinner or not, just to be with her for a bit, and because I thought she wanted to see me.
On a sidenote - You may say the comment about losing her sounds a little... "attached," for lack of a better word. She's a great friend, a great person, and I care about her, and I love her as I love all my friends. Anything we develop beyond that just makes her that much more important.
So talk to her a bit Saturday night when she gets back home, everything's cool. To bed.

Sunday up to her "good morning" txt again. We talk for a bit, and the conversation eventually gets to me seeing her. I reminded her that I was coming over for dinner, because her and her mother invited me - she informs me that it was not her idea, and she didn't feel like having company.
... ... ... ??? ...
Then on top of that, even though I was really polite with my response, she stops talking to me all day, for the most part. Really short exchanges. Okay, now yes, she's very sick, just got out of the hospital, I understand that. I understand it all. But still... that hurts. Especially when the few days before we're all into each other, working things out, planning a day trip together to get away from it all, everything was going smooth. I was nothing but nice, and in my opinion more than any NRI could ask for, especially Saturday. So when it just flips on you like that... it hurts.

But more than, it makes you think... well, it makes me think... like crazy. The sickness doesn't bother me, honestly. It's the talking, not talking, love you, don't want to see you, stay up and talk to me, dont feel like talking to anyone (except on myspace)... all that drives me crazy. I try to chalk it up to sickness, meds, but sometimes I'm just not sure. And I find myself getting built up, only to be disappointed, and then asking what I got myself into. If I stop it here, now, and say I don't want the pressure of trying to develop a bf/gf thing with you - she'll chalk it up to me not caring about her and her sickness and that's it. Deleted off mySpace, phone # erased, over. And thats not what I want. I don't really know that I want to stop here. What I don't want is to break up - like no more friends no nothing. Like I said, she's a good friend, and I care about her. So I wanna be there for her - NRI or not. But I'm just not sure if having her as an NRI is the best thing for either of us. And i don't know how to tell her that either. I'm just torn right now, waiting for her next emotional high.

So yeah, its been a pretty tough weekend for M. And that's just the emotional stuff. Let's not talk about how PayPal was screwing around in my bank account, editing, meetings, sheer boredom and loneliness, and some faint, mysterious but slightly familiar pain in the left of my chest. And on top of that, my entire female supportive constituency was indisposed so I have no one to talk to about this...
Wait... correction. That brings up another good point. There was someone who was there to listen to me for a bit. And you'll never guess who it was... the Former. Yep. I talked to her about it and she comforted me and helped me settle my mind with some things. I don't know what it is, but her voice is so soothing to me, and she always knows the right thing to say. I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but the more I talk to her, the more I'm reminded of how great a friend she really was (vice versa for her too, I'm sure). It might not be too long before she becomes a formal Lady of the Court, instead of the Former. That's a nice thought, we'll ride out on that.

I'm going to bed. I want to create a list of all the sad songs that I've been listening to that make up the soundtrack to this movie that is my life, but I'm freakin tired.

My prayers are with her and her family.

Oyasumi,
M.

Easter Weekend Update

First off happy belated Easter,

Second heres what the ideal weekend would have looked like:
Friday: get filming equipment, film Dormroom Chef, talk to new romantic interest on the phone.
Saturday: edit, meeting, film The Brown Table that night, leave shoot and go surprise new romantic interest @ VIP club party I'm not supposed to be at.
Sunday: rest, dump tapes, edit, Easter dinner with Mom, first date with new romantic interest & much deserved R&R for both of us.

Now here's how it happened:
New romantic interest tells me I'm meeting the WHOLE family on Wednesday. Moms, dads, sisters, brothers, everybody. Now a couple of lines above you'll notice that Sunday is the first date... yeah... So okay that's cool, I'm awesome they'll love me. Shortly after that, for an unknown reason, she was upset all day long. Couldn't do anything to cheer her up so I was bummed. She finally gets up with her friends in the evening and feels better, I'm happy. That night, we filmed 3 new episodes of DormRoom Chef. I was tired as all getout after so I lay down. Now, what's special about Friday? Former's birthday. So @ 2AM I call to wish her happy birthday and she picks up the phone. We talked for almost 2 hours - a record since we ended last summer. Good conversation too, like we used to have. Surprisingly enough, I was cool - not standoffish, not head over heals... I just felt happy, natural. So at sporadic times throughout this conversation, new romantic DDs me from the club screaming her love for me... cute. She calls later, after I finish talking to the Former, and we talk for a bit... decent conversation (which she didnt remember any of... go fig). Sleep, finally.

Saturday, it starts downhill.
So the new romantic interest was mad earlier last week because I couldn't make her huge VIP birthday bash Saturday, because we had to shoot The Brown Table. Well, I found out that the shoot got pushed up and I would be able to make it. So i decide (being the hopeless romantic I am) to surprise her and show up at the party. Had it all planned out - my buddy was going in early, and I would just give him a call and get navigated to the party when I got there. Right... So he hits me up early in the day Saturday and says that theres a VIP list, and so he told her that I was planning on coming after the shoot. She gets mad... again. *sigh* So, me and buddy wait all day to find out if we can still go to the party - end up we can't. Bummer. And she's still mad at me, mind you. But I knew that all her family and friends would soon rid her of that, so okay. So we had a great shoot that night and had a lot of fun. Sleep. (not much) Oh wait, forgot to mention, earlier that day mom canceled Easter dinner... yeah.

Sunday, I had to wake up early to take my partner his camera plate for his church tripod he left here. Got some McDonald's hotcakes on my way back home and started my day with some MySpacing. So today I'm totally psyched right because it's first date day! We had been talking about it all week. It was her demanded birthday present since I couldn't make her party, which I gladly obliged. Her idea. She was excited about it (at least thats the vibe I got) and I was excited about it. Plus, what better way to wind down a super-busy weekend then hugged up on your new boo, getting to know her, right? Right. And since mom canceled dinner, I can cook a nice dinner for us. And you know me - I go all out to make someone I like feel special. So I had a very nice dinner planned, and a awesome surprise for her for dessert. So I txt her and ask what time shes planning on coming over so I know what time to start prepping food. You can guess what happened next... she's not coming. Wants to spend time with family and friends who are in town for her birthday. Which I can understand, but heres my thing: she knew they were going to be there when she made the date. I hate being stood up, because I shake up the bottle of romantic energy and think im going to uncork it... it's like the biggest letdown... it's literally painful to me. So yeah. I'm upset. And what makes it worse is the family dinner that I was looking forward to now can't happen because we haven't been on a date. Her mom pushed back a flight home to invite me to dinner. And I love meeting moms, I always get along with them. So that chance is gone. Man was I ever upset. Not mad - upset.

So the viewers at home are getting tired of this scene coming up in the movie by now I'm sure. M has a girl and he tries to control himself but cant help it and goes all out and gets let down in the end. I know, I honestly cant help it. But this one, I think, is genuine. The only thing is, she's moody. Little rash too... And I'm trying to deal with it... but I know me and I know I don't really do well with moody. Especially if it's the "Now I wanna see you, now I don't" type of moody. I'm a loving person, I love to love and be romantic. But it seems like it gets me screwed every time... I'm hoping it's different this time... but then again I hope it's different every time.

So later in the day (yes, the story goes on) I call my ex to see what she's up to because I was going to bring her out to dinner with my mom since she hadn't seen my lil sis in a while. So I call her, then call my mom and guess what... Easter dinner is on and "I just forgot to tell you." Wow. I'm totally invisible today, huh. Well what time is dinner? 4 (its 3:58 while im on the phone hearing this). Right. So no I'm not going, I call my ex back - dinner @ 8. kRma txts me later and says he wants to do something, so we end up having a nice friendly dinner @ Longhorn, after playing some much needed Rockband. So, after I was feeling much better - but the best was yet to come. I pull out of Longhorn to take my ex back home, and as I pull into the turning lane what comes rolling ever-so-slowly past be but a royal blue Lamborghini Gallardo Spyder. You should have seen the look on my face. "Lamborghini!, Lamborghini!" It was cool. So driving, driving, through the W-E Paces tour, nice houses, etc... and as soon as I pull out into Buckhead, what's parked in front of the shops but a maroon Lamborghini Gallardo... I was floored. Exotics are like shooting stars to me. If you see one, its a sign of good luck and good fortune to come. They were a beautiful addition to what was otherwise emotionally trashing day. So I come home, and have a Macho Manly Movie-night Madness with the roommate - we watched Shoot Em Up (one of the greatest man movies of all time, IMHO). Good times, good times.


I'm so glad I have such great friends. If I have nothing else, I have great friends. And I love them all and I thank you all for being there for me, and always being able to turn the worst days into good days.


Ciao,
M.

M Coupe!

Now here's a properly built, and properly named car :) The BMW M coupe. Of course, all of the M's are on my list of cars to own because... well they are "The Ultimate Driving Machine"s.



Ciao,

M

180!

So, in the update I said that there was a girl who approached me and it was too complicated and whatnot, right? So we kinda decided to try to work through them. Facebook would at this point say "It's complicated," but I am actually committing myself to trying to develop a relationship with this one. This should be interesting :)

Also, this kind of marks the first time that I've had to choose business over my friends in a major way. It's not a good feeling, but you do what you have to do. And this happened in kind of a roundabout way. Long and short of it is New M is filming the weekend of the above-mentioned's birthday. Good news is we should get a good bit of filming done and prob wont have to film again for another month or so.


Stay tuned....

Ciao,
M.

Let's have an update, shall we?

Yep! We need an update. Before I start getting busy again, we need an update.

New M is to blame for the lack of postings, but if you're following along there, you haven't missed too much :) We're about to do our second filming session, and people are responding very well to the first videos. If you haven't checked out Dormroom Chef and The Brown Table, what are you waiting for!? We need your support and feedback :)

School's moving right along. May 10 baby! Hope to see all of my family for graduation. I really miss all of them, especially on my mom's side because I don't get to see them very often. When the company becomes successful, I think I might VLog myself going on a family reunion trip to see everyone. That would be cool.

And that brings us to relationships. Well, it hasn't been all bad. It hasn't been all good. It's been kinda neutral. That one from back in December, gone - don't know if I mentioned that in the last update, but she dropped off the face of the earth. ./shrug - the one that got away I guess. There was a new interest, who actually approached me, but things were a bit too complicated with that. Great new friend though! So I have a new pursuit in mind, if I can get the time (courage) to ask her out. Two actually. So, we'll see I guess.
Ah! That reminds me... the former Princess. Yes, her. I had some very interesting communication with her about my graduation. Some thoughts and feelings, and truths were put into the air, so we'll see where that goes. (Nowhere THAT far is my guess, but at least maybe we can get back to talking to one-another again.)

Sorry no picture updates, haven't been out much. I saw a nice looking african american lady driving a Maseratti yesterday - but I didn't want to just blatantly take a picture. She was cute though, and the car fit her very well. I think i might consider one of those for mom :) Either that or a Bentley sedan. We'll see. I've also seen a black and a yellow Gallardo, both moving too fast for me to even get my camera out. And lastly, a red 430 was pulling out of the Starbucks near me.

Speaking of cars, my she-monster broke down on me on first filming weekend :( But I got her fixed day-of, and still made it to the set :) Thanks to Mr. Ron for that!

Well, I've got editing and data backup to do =/.


Ciao,
M.

Lupe's Gold Watch... and more.

So I head the song by Lupe Fiasco "Gold Watch." It's basically a song about all the things that he likes, and there's a huge listing of foreign and luxury brands (mostly the second verse). So I figured I'd find out what all's in Lupe's closet by analyzing the verse and looking up everything he talks about. Here are the results:

Let's peruse the essential of cool
A brief study of the things so instrumental to you
That make me feel flyer than lobbies of W's
A disclaimer just a rhymer
no credentials from a school now

[ Lupe Fiasco: ]
In my Fall of Rome jeans, my Head Quarter wallet
My Neighborhood shirt and my Eddie Chen CLOT shit
Might not go to college but my street smart polished
Like the black finger nails of
that punk rock logic
Do the knowledge, man you can't
be punked from projects
Firm disbeliever in your punch clock promise
Was trading off my comics I was
taking them to school
One of Jay-Z boys now I'm skatin in your pools
Not to be rude I'm just hatin on your ruse
Like a young 50 I'm on my world tour
Good morning Singapore I'm
bringing the sun with me
From the Robert Taylor Homes
to African slum cities
I am American mentally with Japanese tendencies
Parisian sensibilities so
stay out the vicinity of

[ Bridge: ]
[ Chorus: ]

[ Lupe Fiasco: ]
I like Diptyque candles and Maharishi sandals
And Dita sunglasses , purple murder service samples
I like False t-shirts
Dover Street is off the handle
Such a good designer Junya Watanabe god damn you
I like Yohji Yamamoto and a Max Roach solo
Leather Gucci belts and Guilty Brotherhood polos
I like Mont Blanc pens and Moleskine paper
I like Goyard bags and green Now-n-Laters
Monocle magazines and Japanese manga
Futura Nosferatu and HTM trainers (??)
I love Street Fighter 2 I just really hate Zangief
only Ken and Ryu I find it hard to beat Blanca
I keep a wee ninja hanging and a
Unkle album banging
If you negative in energy then stay out the vicinity of...

[ Chorus: ]
[Third verse]

That took almost 2 hours to research, but it was worth it! Have fun browsing all the brands! If you see any mistakes, or if you can find something about HTM trainers, comment!


Ciao,
M.

New M is Getting Live, and M's Moving!

Hey all! New M's website is up, but moreso the blog is live. Until full launch on the 29th, the blog will keep you posted on what's going on inside the company! Check it out!
The blogs are in WordPress, and as I use it I'm finding that I like it much much more than the blogger platform. It's very customizable and can produce much cleaner and functional looks. So I'll be moving this blog over there pretty soon. I'll have to get in touch with Josh Hallett aka HyKu to do it, because I don't remeber how he said to do it so all the stuff transfers. Theres a method, which I'll post sooner or later.

Ciao!
M.

ZOMG SoCon 08!

Last night and today were simply awesome. SoCon 08 was byfar the best conference I have ever been to. It was a great day for me, and for New M. I learned SO many new thing and met SO many great people. It was a forum that was very open to discussion and thought sharing, and I got a lot of great ideas on how to improve my blogging, and other forms of social media that are available for me to share all thats going on (Twitter, here I come!).
The sheer number of great minds that were there was simply astonishing. I was truly humbled, especially since I went in thinking I knew far more about social and new media than I actually did. The speakers and discussion leaders and even some participants were surely some (if not all) of the minds that shape and define this concept of new and social media. As soon as I can track them all down, I'll be adding their links in to my blog favorites, and I may be moving my blog as well.
New M has newfound fuel and insight on ways we can reach out to people in the form of new media. We're having some issues with production equipment - it seems we can't get it as freely as we thought we could from GSU, which is understandable. So, we may be looking at having to go get a little money, or if anyone has any Canon GL2 cameras or something better or comparable that we can borrow a couple days out of the week, as well as any other production equipment (mics, stands, light, etc.) let me know! :) But other than that the website should go up soon, and the show sites will soon follow. Success shouldnt be too far behind that :)

Stay tuned!
M.

SEEFUUU!!

Wow. I was really about to have to drop the field study class and push graduation back again. But, I found a company, and we came to an agreement. A good company, nonetheless with a good idea. May 10th here I come!

In business, I met with my mentor today and he helped me to get some much-needed focus. I am but one person, with a million ideas. So its good to have someone who will look at you like you're crazy (because you are) and put you in check quick, fast, and in a hurry.

In other news, I think there might actually be a steady email conversation going on between me and Chirstmas-break-girl. Don't get your hopes up though, I'm not. I sent the sweet, romantic guy on vacation, not to be called back until I can be sure that his efforts are truly needed. Poor guy, I don't want to see him go through all that work and get his hopes up for nothing. I think his feelings were a bit hurt last time. So the business side is working full time now. Hopefully one day things will be so that they can co-exists, they are one in the same M, after all.



Ciao,
M.

Business is getting better!

Well, some great things happened last Wednesday that made me rething New M, and really revitalized my views about it. We got some publicity, we're going to a conference, and we've expanded the business concept. It's coming....

The Last of the Hopeless Romantics: The Gift and the Curse

I wrote this one night sitting up in bed. Something that had been formulating around in my mind made it into words, so I felt I should share.

The Gift and the Curse of Being the Last of the Hopeless Romantics:
You can, with what seems to you like not much effort, make a girl feel at home, make her happy, melt her heart, if you will. Without trying. It's just who you are. It's a gift given by the gods, or perhaps inherited from another life. A birthright?
So what could be the curse to that? Try it. You'll see. It becomes blatantly obvious in practice. Because its the nature of romance to put yourself into courting someone, you fall hard and fast. What's wrong with that? She's happy and comfortable right? Exactly... and that's just not right. She starts taking steps back to avoid the shock of unfimiliarity. You're the last one remember? No one's seen you or your craft in a hundred years. Its too good to be true. So they back away. Further and further until *poof*, gone. and you don't get over it until the next best thing comes along. And they can be few and far between. You're the last one to have this gift, so you're picky about who you share it with. Such is the life of the Last of the Hopeless Romantics. One of patience, uncertainty, ecstatic highs, dreadful lows, and unexpected triumph. Try dating in my shoes. I dare you.

-M.

That's how I get when its late at night. Not much of those thought ever make it to pen, at least not public pen. I felt that should be out (1) because its a part of who I am and this blog is about me and (2) because I wanted to put it out there that we still exist. The good guys are still here ladies. The TRUE good guys. The ones who open doors, send flowers, leave roses in the middle of the city for you to find, bring you cough medicine, cook you dinner, help you study, and generally like to spend time with you outside of the bedroom.

I'm convinced that there are still good girls out there that like good guys. Eventually I'll end up courting one that wants to be courted...

..And you, the viewer, will be the first to know, play by play!!! ROFL.

Ciao,
M.

Live again!

Hey all. Sorry for the delay. My computers' actually been up for a bit now, but I've been so busy catching up to life and dealing with school I haven't stopeed to blog. Let's see... it snowed. I'll post new pics from my phone. Other than that, not much has gone on really.

Here's the specs for the new PC:
ASUS M2NPV HDMI motherboard, Athlon 64x2 4400+ Dual Core (no overclocking yet, I think thats what blew my last one up), 2GB DDR800 OCZ RAM with 4-4-4 timings. Had to lose one of my optical drives and one of my hard drives. So I have a total of 860GB storage space.


I'm tired. Ciao,
M.

1st Week of School Update

Today is my 3rd 1st day of school for Spring 2008. I've been to all my classes except the big one, 4980. Everything is great, seems like its going to be a breeze. The field study thing didn't work out with J.B., but I think that will still be a great course (once I find my entre). The financial planning course is just in time for Centurion 2010. And geography... yeah. I got an easy teacher, so... its geography lol. Other than that though...

Job - One more interview to go with Firedog. I'm supposed to hear something back within the week. Looking forward to it if it happens. I'm sure Buckhead will be welcoming of a new friendly, neighborhood in-home technician.

Cars - I saw a Gallardo Spyder black yesterday, but didn't have time to snap a picture. Sorry.

Relationships - It's the Thursday after. Nothing else other than that, if that's anything =/

Computer - ...sigh. Soon.

Business - We've decided to add another show to the NMM launch schedule! Sorry there isn't any web presence, I don't have a computer. But yeah, thats going well.

M. - I'm feeling better after everything that happened over the break, and I'm glad to be back in school for the last semester. Money is coming together, and for the most part I'm starting off on the right foot. And... I'm 23! Happy Birthday to me!

Fresh for 2008!

Happy (belated) New Year!
It's time for a fresh new year of fun and business and friends and life and stuff. Let's start with and update...

Computer - still dead...

School - starts Tuesday. There was a breakdown in communication with my entrepreneurship class, so that's still pending a decision. Its looking fairly favorable right now though. Fingers crossed, and praying on it.

Business - computer dying was a little hicup in getting the logos and websites designed, but business still goes on as planned and on schedule.

Realtionships - (aka the juicy part). Well, Thursday.Jan.03.08 got here. The 4th rose was sent with a very deep, introspective letter (perhaps too deep, too introspective, but whatever), to which there was a rather short and unrelated reply. Which means, I'm done. Done playing offense at least. I invested a lot of time and energy into the last 4 weeks and it's been fun, but it would seem the timing just isn't right, so I'm hanging back. School's coming up, NMM needs to get off the ground, money needs to be straight; so many things I need to focus time and energy on. It's disappointing, 'cuz she's a great girl and would have been great beside me as I go on this path of personal development and entrepreneurship, but hey what can you do? And like I said, I'm just not playing offense anymore, so once she gets herself setttled, who knows? She might get back in the game.

Job - Well, as I'm writing this, my interview that was supposed to happen tomorrow just got pushed back a week. That means I SO could have waited to get my hair done. I contacted my Delta lady today, busy as usual but I think she's working on it somewhere in there. Fingers crossed, and praying on it...

Cars - Jan.03.2008 was a cold day in Atlanta. And what better to do on a cold day than skate! Skate through the Marietta court system that is... Out of 3 tickets, only had to pay half of one. What could have been $405USD in tickets was only $76USD. Granted, one ticket I shouldn't haave had anyways.
Here's an important lesson for everyone though: if you get any kind of parking ticket, and the officer does not get your signature - DONT PAY IT, GO TO COURT. It will most likely get thrown out b/c with no sig, there's no proof you were driving. I was out of the courtroom in 5 minutes. (Thats my experience, and I dont know if thats universal for the nation, so don't go to court saying "M said in his blog, yall would let me go..." :P) In an unrelated matter, I locked my keys in the car when I got to the court building x_X.

So that's what's going on currently. My main focus right now is to get a new job, hopefully that will happen within the next 2 weeks. I need to get my computer back up and running so I can stay on top of things. I'm going hard at this last semester so I can graduate on May.10, and NMM is still slated to launch Feb.29.

So, all in all it's a completely fresh start for this new year. That slate is almost completely blank. And as promised, Centurion by 2010 did start on New years day. As that progresses, I will probably end up creating a separate blog and maybe even a webshow to track the progress.

2008, the year of the M. It's a movie! Follow along.

Ciao,
M.