The New Blog

Hisashiburi~! (Long time no see).

As of January 2010, I will start blogging again. You can find the new blog at www.MeMyselfAndM.net.

The new blog will contain the usual updates on all things M, as well as some new categories like video games, computers and tech, and startup/entrepreneur stuff.

While you anxiously await, do feel free to follow me on Twitter @MeMyselfAndM.

See you soon,


Goooooooo Bye-bye!


This blog is going away, at least in the form. I've decided to move over to a full Wordpress website. I'm working on it now, and hope to have it up by mid-April. 

until then check out my new pet project, Between the Lyrics

Ill post the URL to the new site when it's ready.

Til then, Ciao.


What I'm Most Thankful For Today

I was reading over some Thanksgiving quotes and there was a lot of stuff about gratititue - which got me to thinking about thanks and things I'm thankful for. I have a lot to be thankful for: my company, my health, my family, friends, my apartment, and so much more. However, I realized there are some people that I've been talking about all year, and this past weekend has really been a reminder of how important they all are to me.

Ladies. A proper title, always with a capital "L" and preceded by another word to distinguish the different groups (which I'm not getting into). But suffice to say that my Ladies are my closest female family and friends, without whom I would be a different person.

Mom, thank you so much for just being my mom. The relationship we have is like no other, and is envied by many. You're always there for me, and you've always got my back, even when you don't understand the path I've chosen. What I cannot help you understand by telling you, I will make you see by showing you. I promise. And I'll miss you next year.

Kay. You've always treated me as if I were your own. I've never known anything but love from you and I really appreciate that. You're definitely the hostess with mostest, there's never a dull moment. I wish you the best of luck in your studies and in life. You're a great mom, a great wife, and a great person. So I'm reaching across the aisle to tell you I love you ;)

Ke, Kisha, my sisters - you are both growing up to be strong and smart young Ladies. Both of you have a fire and creativity, and a drive to be excellent at such a young age. It's inspiring to see both of you grow in the way you've grown. You're both great to be around and I love your energy. It is my deepest regret that I don't get to spend as much time with either of you as I would like to, but I hope you both can forgive your big brother, and I  strive to be in  a place one day soon where I will be able to spend time with you both whenever I want.

Too many aunties to name :) But know that you're all the best aunties a nephew could ever ask for. More like my big sisters than anything, really. You're all awesome and it's so cool how each of you has a little hand in shaping who I am today. 

Crissy, Rina, K'Sha, my High Ladies. My best and most trusted female friends. You Ladies are something special in my life. You all know me better than anyone, and you've helped me through so, so much. I can talk to any of you about anything. You are all strong, beautiful, women and I respect that most about every one of you. You guys have advised me and been there for me when I was completely lost and without all of you, I don't know where I'd be today. You all define what a Lady is to me.

And last, but certainly not least, my First Lady. Bunny, you are my best friend and my love, the full moon in my night sky. Thank you so much for seeing this through, because I know it hasn't been easy to do. Thank you for daring to be different this time around, and answering all the challenges life threw at us these past four months. I promise you I'm here to stay, through it all. Let us both continue to rise to the challenges and become closer and stronger through them, so that when it is time, there will be no walls between me, you, and "I do." Love you sweetie.

I love all of you. Dearly. Thank you SO much. Enjoy your holidays Ladies. From me to you - today is your day.


P.S. also a special thank you to my BFF, Miss 'Ssadie Mae, and my brother and fellow entrepreneur, Miss Saba.


My Worst Fears

Halloween is coming up, which has nothing to do with why I'm writing this, but it has sensible irony so I thought I'd mention it.

Before there was a First Lady, my wirst fear was becoming successful without having anyone at my side to share it with (the experience, and the success). One of my quotes is "Beside every great man, there's a phenomenal woman (who runs the non-profit)," and even though theres a slight bit of humor there, it's very sincere and I believe it firmly. So much in fact that it scared me to think that I would become successful in business without becoming successful in love. And when I say scared, I mean losing sleep, borderline depressed-type scared. Sometimes when I was really down, that thought kept me that way.

Well, now I have my lovely, wonderful First Lady. And I've discovered that even though I finally found her, my greatest fear in life has not gone away; it has transformed. Now, the thing that scares me the most is losing her. And I guess it's just a part of building a relationship and being in love (especially given the conditions), but when you look at it, it's really the same fear as my first fear. And it acts the same way. When I'm down, or everything not sunshine and butterflies in the relationship, it haunts me. I have bad daydreams about it, and I still lose sleep over it. And I hate it. And it shouldn't be there. This is the love of my life, and the woman I plan to spend the rest of my life with. And she's there for me and I'm there for her. And even when stuff is hard we work through it. 

So WHY am I still haunted!?



I'm Still Here

Hey I've been super super busy, so i havent blogged in a while. here's a quick update.

The First Lady and I are doing better than ever :)

Business is going good. We might even see some green before year-end!

My car is dead.

Trying to get my finances in order and stay busy and focused and not lose my mind from being stuck in the house.

The job hunt is not going too great. Anybody need an intermediate Flex programmer?

So yeah, I'll try to keep you all more posted from now on.

Sorry for being a bad blogger.



One Month and Lovin' It (and her)!

Okay, its been a while, yes. I've been busy, so I haven't had a chance to blog. And theres a lot to blog about - between the car, work, business, and love, it's a lot to write about when ur busy.

But anyways, yesterday was the First Lady and I's one-month anniversary, so I figured now would be a good time to go ahead and write about us.

So let's see, what first... Aha! The second date.
So yeah, she decided on ice cream and then a trip to the park to play on the playground... I know, right? The playground? Just wait...
Now it just so happened that mom was out of town so I took her car in lieu of mine being broken down and headed on out to the Lady's house. I called her when I got there and she wasn't ready so I waited in the car for a bit, listening to my new mix CD I had just burned. Then... it happened. I lost my breath, started sweating, felling lightheaded, and a tad natious. I'm sitting in my car like WTF? Not now. WTF is this? Then it hit me - panic attack. Ugh. I'm not sure why but yep I was having a panic attack. She called me and invited me in the house b/c she was taking so long and I went in. Sat on the couch in her basement while she walked around getting ready. All the while drinking Vitamin Water like it was going out of style and trying to calm down. So she got ready, I got a glass of water, sucked it up, and we left. We went up to the Brusters and got her some ice cream (I was clearly in no condition for it) and sat down. She asked me what was wrong (its hard to hide a panic attack - you feel like trash) and so, I told her. We talked about it for a second, and I was like I'll be fine in a little bit. And she was cool. She ate her ice cream and I pulled myself together somewhat. So then we headed off to the park. I chewed some gum during the drive, which appeared to be the thing to make me feel better.

So we get to this big huge park (not the little one I thought we were going to that I passed on the way to her house). And go over to the playground, and she's like "lets take a walk til the kids are gone." Love it. Needed the fresh air and there was a nice big lake to walk around. And it was kinda dusky so it was very romantic too :) So we walked and hugged and held hands all the way around the lake. We joked and laughed a lot. She's got a great sense of humor, and for some reason think I'm funny... /shrug lol. And I love her smile. So one lap around the lake and it was still kinda light out and some kids were still there so we parked ourselves on a bench and did some overdue cuddling. Good stuff. We talked and joked some more and then I got to rub her legs again (they're super firm and super-smooth, remember?) while we talked. So after a while the kids were all gone and we went to the playground and commenced to... playing. No for real, like climbing, jumping, swinging, sliding, playing. And you know what? It was so much fun lol. I'm a big kid anyway but I was kinda questioning the playground as a date. Never again. If you haven't been, you need to get on the train.

So after playing and flirting and laughing and talking and joking she was looking for a good place on the playground to just chill. Well this jungle gym was one of those that had the little bridge that connects the two towers, so I was like let's go lay over there, and she followed. So I laid down and she laid down next to me and I held her and we looked at stars. It felt soooo good to have her that close to me. Oddly enough, the bridge was a lot more comfortable than I thought too. So after a while she turned over on her stomach (which is how she sleeps) and laid her head down on my chest. She was sooo cute lying there, and every time a car would drive by she would pop her head up and look at it drive by, like a little kitten. It was so cute. So at this point, what's going through my mind is "Now, how are we gonna work this kiss in?" And I thought about it and thought about it while we were laying there talking. Then, a car came by. And like clockwork she popped her head up to look. "Psssst." She looked down at me. Done. And she's a great kisser too :) Oh, and she's the first girl I've kissed with a tongue ring. And that's a lot of fun. It's like a little target - a minigame to play during the real the thing lol. So yeah, we laid there on that bridge and talked and made out for a good bit, and then she wanted to roam around the playground some more, so we did. Except this time we kissed each other at every turn lol.

So, I took her back home, and we sat there in front of her house. I asked her if she had a good time... she put her hand on the side of my face and turned my head to her, eye to eye, and thanked me for such a great time and told me she loved me and kissed me. It was great. She really does know how to make a guy feel appreciated, lol. I watched her in the house and left.
I called her when I got home and we talked about the date like we weren't the ones who went on it. It was so cool because she was so open about every little detail, and I love that openness.

Next, the block party.
Okay, so she had been planning this big block party for the youth at her church for a while now, and I ended up being in charge of grilling. I bought hamburger and hot dogs and my apron and spices. I wont go into all the nuances of the block party, but I'll say that it was super-fun, and all of her church ppl are very cool and friendly. I met her sister and brother, and they were super-cool. I also had a brief exchange with her mom, who made a joke that totally flew over my head lol. And the guests that came had good messages and good performances. So afterwards I helped her pack everything up and take it back to the church, where her car was also parked.
So we decided to go and get some ice cream at the same Brusters. I let her take point, since she knew how to get back to her side of town. And when I pulled my car up next to hers, I caught a glimpse of something that I thought surely was just my mind playing tricks on me. I rolled down my window and asked her to show me her hands. She wouldn't do it and kept acting like she didn't know what I was talking about, which confirmed what I had seen. So I watched her drive off and sure enough, there they were... driving gloves.

Pause the scene. For those who don't know me, I like cars. I like driving. I like women. I like women who drive. And I don't mean commute drive, I mean Dannica Patrick drive. Now I knew that the First Lady was into cars and racing, and she told me she was a different driver when she was driving alone, but driving gloves? Black and light blue driving gloves? People, you are now looking at a man who is totally smitten over a woman.

Play. So she pulled off, and the chase ensued. Oh BTW, Shiro is fixed and purring like a kitten... all 6 cylinders. Yessir. This girl drives. Hard. Not that I was struggling to keep up mind you (except when she totally blew thru a yellow). I pulled up next to her at some lights and she was paying no attention to me at all. She was blasting music fixing her hair in the mirror. Green light - hands on the wheel and she's into it. I love it. Love, love, love it. She's minus a few rules of the road.. like signaling, for instance, but she can handle a car.

So after quite a fun chase we arrived a Brusters and ordred our ice cream and sat across from each other on a bench. I made a joke about her having full length jeans on (she usually cuffs them) so I couldn't get to her legs to rub them. (Let me take this moment to remind you that I'm not a leg guy, which is testament to how amazing hers are). She replied "They're right there I don't know what you're talking about." She was trying me. Not only that thought, but she then proceeded to explain how SHE even thought they were EXTRA smooth today and she had to spend extra time putting lotion on them because they felt just that good. ... Tried, okay. Teased, certainly not. I rolled her jeans up a bit and slid my hand up the leg (that sounds so super sexual, it really wasn't like that... we're talking ankle to calf here) and Z O M G, she was not joking. It was smoother than the ice cream I was eating. So smooth that I got it confused with ice cream I was eating and wanted to eat it instead. She was laughing at my reaction and I sat there and rubbed it for a good little while. Then I relocated us to a bench behind Brusters in front of our cars where we sat, talked, made out, joked, laughed, made out, and then we decided to take pictures. That was super fun and super cute. We took a lot of good pictures, most of which are posted on my FB and MS. So after that we parted ways. Of course I called her when I got home and we talked into the wee hours of the morning.

So yeah, its been a great month. I don't get to see her as much as I want to because of her schedule constraints and my car being broken most of the past month. But I do talk to her a lot and when I do see her, it's pure bliss.

Stay tuned people. There's a lot of stuff going on. Tetris blocks are looming overhead, trying to fall into place.

Love you, Bunny.



One Week in Love

So, as I'm sitting here on the phone with the High Lady, finally catching her up on all the goodness that's going on, I'm also counting down the hours until 2:56 AM - which will mark the First Lady (aka Inimitable Lady, I'll explain in a sec) and I's 1-week anniversary. :)

And what a great week it's been. We've talked and talked and talked and shared with each other almost every night. She's awesome. She's just plain awesome. I love her. She's so cute, and she's very honest and open and candid. When I said my goodbyes to PlentyofFish, where I met her, I was looking over my profile and reading the things that I was looking for in a woman. As I was going down, I was thinking of her, and just checking things off. She's everything I could have hoped for and more. I wanted a down girl who would be there by my side and grow with me. And that's exactly what she is. She's so supportive with everything, including New M. She's helping me pick logos for DRC right now :) The best I tell you, the best.

On another note, because of some conversation we've been having, and of course from talking to the High Lady just now, I got to thinking and re-evaluating some things about the two of them. First Lady's already told me that she gets me and High Lady's friendship and accepts it and accepts her (which is a good thing, no drama between the two of them). But I was thinking about the High Lady and myself, wondering if I was really over her and ready to move on. I've been over her for a while now, since we were back friends. But now that someone is here, ascending their way to what was once hers, am I really past those 10 years...?


The First Lady brought forth feelings that I never really knew I even had. Well, I knew they existed somewhere, but I wasn't sure if they'd ever get awakened, so to speak. I've never been as happy as last week when she told me she loved me. And we fit each other so well, it's great. No offense to the High Lady, of course, because she was my first true love and she set a standard for the next Princess for sure. But what I'm saying is the First Lady is... well... the first lady to ever reach that bar, and she continues to surpass it. And I don't think she will stop until she reaches the crown. And when she does, I will gladly put it on her, without restraint.

It makes me really happy to know that I can do all this with the High Lady's best wishes, and when I crown my next and forever Princess, the High Lady will surely be present with well wishes for me and my new love. I'm sure of it. And I really hope and pray that I can someday see her crowned again by someone else who will treat her as a Princess deserves to be treated. She has really been and will always be a true friend to me, through thick and thin, no matter what. And in that light, only in that light, I love her very dearly.

And now, it's time to begin a new chapter in this movie that is my life. With the First Lady at my side, I can to build a dynasty to rule over, and a castle to live in. There's a whole world in front of me. And with her, I plan to take all I can of it.

Stay tuned... it only gets better...