A Little Bit on the High Lady

Hmm... yeah this needs to hurry up and get out of my system. Well, where to start? The High Lady, formerly known as The Former, formerly known as The Princess. What can I say? I was in love with the girl for as long as I can remember. It should be about 11 years this year. She's my best friend, truly my best friend. She knows me like no one else does. We've never dated, never slept with each other, and only kissed twice. But she is a piece of my heart.

Well last year close to this time (read back to my VA trip when I got my car, Shiro) we kind of came to a crossroads as to what to do about us. We loved each other. I loved her, she loved me. But she was not ready to move forward. And because of circumstances behind that - we went our separate ways. I was hurt. Very hurt. So was she. She is the origin of the title Princess. I was 100% sure that I was going to marry this girl. And when this happened and we parted ways, I erased that title from my world, as I did every memory of her and us - all stored to the back of mind. It took a long time but, using my anger and disappointment as fuel, I successfully managed to lock her away... and thus was born The Former.

Well you can look back and see what happened to bring her back in my world, into my Court as a High Lady. And she was here for my graduation. So what now? Well that's what I wanted to touch on. Things worked out that she stayed with me during her visit here this past weekend. I already mentioned that when I started talking to her again I realized how much of a friend she really was, and well she really knew me. But that doesn't begin to touch the surface of who this girl really is. When she was a Princess, she rightfully deserved that title.

Let me say this - you can appreciate something 100% when you have it. I think thats possible. BUT, if you take that thing away, and even oppose that thing for a period of time; when that thing comes back into your life you appreciate it far beyond 100%. It's a whole new level that you cant realize until that thing is taken away from you and put back. Now mind you, "the breakup" last summer was the 3rd time she has left and somehow made it back into my life. When she got here in Atlanta, she just fell right back into place, as if the previous year had not even happened. And I paid attention to every little detail while she was here - and I understood then why it was that I loved her so much. The way she carries herself, the way she acts around me, everything about her is a perfect fit to me. She doesn't see the little things because it's who she is, but I do. And she's grown up too. I've watched her grow up for many, many years. I've seen her though nearly every one of her phases, and I have to say that I'm proud of her. She's dealt with a lot - and to see her grow into the mature, strong, smart young lady she is today is heartwarming for me. She's my best friend. She will always be my best friend. I trust her with anything, as she does me.

So what does all that mean? Well, it means that there's definitely a part of me that still loves her. It's not nearly as big a part of me as it was before. It does sometimes bother me that we aren't together - but not nearly as much as it used to. I have moved on from the person I was a year ago. And I'm not going back to being that person. There will not be a girl that can replace her bit for bit - that's a given, but a few show potential of being crowned. And what does this mean for them, the girls I date? Nothing. It means I have a best friend who I used to be in love with and who used to be in love with me - nothing more than that. I have moved on from those days and I'm looking for a new leading lady in this movie that is my life. The High Lady and I could end up together - but it's unlikely because we're at different points in our lives. But as I said, she will always be my best friend, no matter what happens. Thus is the existence of the High Lady., and the nature of our relationship.





Ciao,
M.

Graduation Day!!!

Graduation Day. May 10th, 2008.... Wow. So crazy....

Up bright and early getting everyone ready to head over to mom's house and convoy out. When we got to moms house, apparently no one there wanted breakfast so she didn't make any. So me, High Lady, and mom got busy on that. Waffles, eggs, bacon, and applesauce :). Good stuff.

Got everyone dressed and organized and headed for the Dome.
Thanks Charma for the good directions!

So we got there and got everyone parked and organized and seated. Once that was done, I headed "backstage" with the graduates and met up with a few of my D-Pi brothers. As we sat and awaited the line-up we all talked, I took a short nap, and listened to some music. They started getting the procession together and taking everyones picture. Then we heard the announcement on the other side of the curtain and the roar of the crowd. Everything was just buzzing and full of excitement as we walked through the concourse to the field. As we got closer, you could notice that everyone was on their cell talking to their parents trying to find themselves for pictures :) It was so funny. I was getting backstage video footage from one phone and talking to my mom on another, lol. It was so exciting to walk on to that field with everyone. We were seated, we did the nat'l anthem, then Andrew Young spoke. He's a really good speaker, and his speech was quite motivational. So was Pres. Patton's. Eventually, they had us stand for commencement. It really takes the video to show the excitement and energy. When Pres. Patton had us "move our tassels from the right to the left" everything just erupted. It was so great. Then we all sat down and they started doing the individual schools. Of course, they saved the best for last... Ryan and I pulled out some dollar bills, and when Pres. Patton said "...alll undergraduate student from the J. Mack Robinson C...." our whole section just blew up. Like I said- you have to see the video to understand how awesome it really was.

So there was a bit more ceremony and it was over. I called my mom, only to find out that they all left early. And I'd just like to say to all of them, for the record, that was trifling. Just plain trifling. And, of course, my mother had my keys, so not only did they leave me there - they left me stranded there. I wasn't gonna let it ruin my day though. They came back and I got my keys and went back to the apartment with my lil cousin and the High Lady, and changed clothes.

Theres a very, very nice guy who lives across the street from my mother (he's an awesome painter too) who volunteered to do all the BBQing. The weather stayed nice, despite bad weather reports an we all cooked out outside and took lots of pictures. The food was delicious.

The high Lady and I returned to my apartment after I took her through Orchard Knob to see all the nice houses, and we went straight to sleep lol. Both of us were dead tired from the day. I woke up because it was too early for me to go to bed, so I did some misc. things. She woke up later and we laid in the bed and talked for a while and then went to bed for the night. I took her back and saw everyone off from my mom's apartment in the morning and then it was time for Mother's Day. It was great having everyone there.

The day before graduation day!

I graduate tomorrow! Be sure and read the pre-update update before this posts so you can be caught up on all thats going on.

Family came into town, the ceremony was really nice, everything was great. My Aunt Debbie flew in from Cali with her husband and kids - I'm so glad they came because I haven't seen her in so long. Pretty much everyone from my dad's side came down. And thankfully, the High Lady came (more on that later).

Friday morning was super busy. I got up early and went to pick mom's car up (mine is still broken down :( ). Had to go downtown to pick up my cap and gown and turn in my papers to get paid at my new job @ the library. Once that was done, mom and I went shopping @ Costco then Kroger. Mom acted like she had never been to a Costco before and so she was running around sampling everything and taking forever. This is the same mother, mind you, that woke me up @ 9a that morning talking about we had things to do and I needed to get moving. =/

While we were in Kroger though, an interesting thing happened. Dad and the High Lady were using me as a switchboard earlier that morning to arrange High Lady being picked up. Being that I was quite sleepy when they were calling, I made a mistake and dialed speed-dial 2 on my phone, which is reserved for the important girl in my life - Filipina. I thought I hung up before the call went through so I thought nothing of it. Well, as I was walking into Kroger, she called me.... to check on me and make sure nothing was wrong since I called her so early. Really? Wow. Brownie points for her (and me, since I had to explain to her the whole speed-dial 2 thing) =)

So after Kroger we went back to Moms house and I passed out in the living room floor, until it was time to go get my hair done. So I asked my stylist while I was there if she knew anyone who could do dreads, and she said she could, and I even got to see some that she had done, and they looked great! And she said she'd only charge me 80 bucks to lock 'em! SWEET. I have an appointment in 2 weeks :)

Left and picked up my little sister, and shortly after the family started rolling in. Mom needed me to go back to the store, so I took the High Lady with me and we went shopping. Brought everything back and shortly after took the High Lady and my little cousin back to the apartment. Somehow, it happened that EVERYONE was over that night. We mingled for a bit, then the High Lady got sleepy so I put her to bed and went back out to hang with the boys for a while. We had our usual mix of video games and banter, and I retired early, knowing I had to get up in the morning and graduate from college =)

Pre-Update Update

Hey all,

I know it's been a while... but I've been going through some stuff. Anyways, basically it was all financial - bills need to be paid, car broke down, in between jobs, lots of stuff...

With all that, and trying to graduate I was pretty stressed out and hot a lot to deal with. But I'm back, and I have a lot of updating to do, so lets get to it.

My car:
Shiro broke down about 2 weeks ago. The last day of class before finals to be exact. I was on my way to school and as soon as I got on the highway it overheated. So I pulled off to Goodyear and they looked at it and said it was a 300-some-odd dollar fix to my thermostat. I didnt have it so I brought Shiro back to the apartment and there she sits. The guy that worked on my car (not the shop mgr, who gave me the estimate) said that he had bled the system and it was fine to drive home. I've driven it twice since then (no highway or major driving though) and she's been fine. I'm gonna have my mechanic look at it and fix it though anyway, since he says 200$ will do the job. Then theres the matter of getting her insured again... x_X

My job:
Well I'm happy to say I'm back at the GSU Library working with the awesome web team there on a special project for special collections. It's a temp assignment though June that could turn into something longer, or perhaps even (semi)permanent. It pays well, so here's hoping x..(-.-)..x

My efforts in trying to teach high school are bearing no fruit as of this moment.

I'm gonna contact Delta lady one more time, just for kicks - just to see if she'll actually respond.

Romance:
Well, it sort of seems that one girl in particular is taking a shine to me (wow... I sounded like I was 40 just then lol). But anyways she's a beautiful little Filipina, very smart, funny, and California cool :). She made speed dial 2, so I'd venture to guess I'll be mentioning her again - so we'll call her Filipina, for now. Stay tuned.

Friends:
Well me and my friend who had a falling out around the same time as the whole Drama Queen thing are back friends, I guess.

The High Lady and I... well you already know that story. We're back friends. Nothing more than that.